"Wanting to Love" by Ding Dang
♫ The goddess is cutely lazy ♫
♫ Her ups and downs are just too cute ♫
♫ Whatever schemes there are, let's be crazy together ♫
♫ Why get to the point of a showdown? ♫
♫ Why don't we just forget it? ♫
♫ I don't want it ♫
♫ It's not worth it ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I don't want love for love ♫
♫ The harm from being single is high ♫
♫ The heavens rarely bring about endings ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me ♫
♫ Found my ideal partner ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I don't want love for love ♫
♫ The harm from being single is high ♫
♫ The heavens rarely bring about endings ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me ♫
♫ Away from Cloud 9 ♫
Episode 16
What is this?
Is this a feast?
Is this what you mean by "being yourself"?
Yes, I've thought it over.
If I want to celebrate White Valentine's day, I can celebrate White Valentine's day.
I don't need my husband to celebrate it with me.
Because Gao Mama and Xiu Qiong Jie will drop all confrontations today,
put hand in hand to happily enjoy this White Valentine's day.
I don't want to be hand in hand with her.
I also will not hold that flirt's hand.
- Lin Man Man. - Flirt.
Don't be like this you guys.
Look, I've even prepared wine.
This wine is really good.
It's my husband's favorite.
Normally, I don't buy it because it's too expensive,
but I prepared it for today.
Forget about him. Let's drink this,
and celebrate a White Valentine's day that belongs only to us ladies!
I can have the meal, but I don't drink wine.
I know, so I've prepared organic fruit cider vinegar and carbonated water for you.
Gao Mama, lets drink this, okay?
Okay.
I'll drink it with you.
But since I got married, I haven't drank any wine.
I'm afraid my tolerance isn't good.
Let's not drink too much.
Okay.
Wishing us forever youth and happiness everyday.
- Forever youthfulness! - Happiness everyday!
Okay.
Xiao Qian, you really know how to pick out wine.
This wine isn't too sour or too sweet.
It's perfect.
Things are meant to be shared with good friends. Please have some more.
Then I won't be shy about it.
Come on.
Let's cheer again.
Some people don't drink. We can drink it.
Let me pour you some.
Alone, guarding an empty house.
That feeling you get when your husband comes home.
Waiting until midnight and not even a sight!
Waking up half way through the night going to the washroom, and you're afraid of ghosts.
Right?
Yes! Gao Mama. No, Man Man Jie. You understand me.
Gao Mama understand you.
Fellow sufferers empathize with each other.
And you said you weren't going to drink much.
You went from wine to beer.
But don't think that just because there's a lot of people in the house, you won't be lonely.
As for me, there's a lot of people in my house.
I have sons, a daughter-in-law, and a grandchild.
So cute.
Wei Wei, my grandson, is so much fun.
She's showing off her family again.
Before, when I am at home, I was not relaxed.
I was very busy.
Cooking, mopping, laundry, and taking care of children.
I did a lot. But...
They feel that I'm just giving myself trouble.
What is that?
Not that.
Not "ya gei", it's "Yea gei"
- "Yea gei".- "Yea gei".
Is it food? I can learn.
Is it good?
Crazy!
You can't eat that.
"Yea gei" means...
It's saying, saying that I look for trouble and I'm nosy.
They think I'm very annoying.
They say what I cooked is not good.
Too much oil, and too greasy.
They even said
one month's twenty thousand dollars... They rather give it to a part-time cook, then to give it to me.
I thought that...
I thought that I am fortunate because my husband died early.
I didn't remarry.
What was it all for? For my two sons.
I raised my sons. Helped my oldest son get married.
I have a grandson. I feel that...
I feel that I am very fortunate. I have a grandson to play with.
Then look. Look at me now? I am not home.
I'm living here. Do they think that I'm unnecessary?
They don't want me anymore. Right?
- Not right! - Yes, that is it!
That's not right. Don't cry.
They are bad!
They don't want you! I want you!
You want me?
Don't be silly. She has a son. It won't be your turn.
I can take care of you.
I'll be with you forever.
You're going to take care of me?
I won't cry.
You'll take care of me.
Rest assured, Man Man Jie will look after you too.
We can take care of each other, okay?
Okay!
Man Man Jie, cheers!
No.
No, I should be toasting you.
Jie Jie cheers to you.
You two fools.
Your husband and your family are not worried about you,
yet you are sad for them.
Are you sick?
It's empty.
Mine is too.
If it's empty, stop drinking.
I'll go buy more!
I will go. You're drunk.
You both are drunk, okay?
No, I'm not drunk.
Look, I'll walk in a straight line.
You can walk in a straight line?
I am.
Really walking in a straight line! Haha.
- Right? - You're so great!
Are you two crazy?
I'm too lazy to care about you all.
She's in a straight line too.
Xiao Qian is ready to go. I'll go buy it.
Keep it up!
Man Man Jie, I'm going to buy beers.
Wait for me!
Is that Xiao Qian's voice?
Isn't she already...
Wait for me!
- Xiao Qian. - Huh?
Why are you here?
Weren't you supposed to be spending White Valentine's day with your husband?
Why do I have to spend it with him?
I want to spend it on my own.
Man Man Jie, I'm going to buy beers. Wait for me.
What are you going to do?
I'm going to buy beer to celebrate.
I'm going to buy beer to celebrate White Valentine's day.
Good catch!
You caught really well!
You think this is baseball?
Cover her.
Can you call her husband in a bit?
I'll talk to him.
Don't choke my neck!
I can't breathe! Move your hands!
Don't choke me!
You haven't had alcohol a long time, and you still drank so much.
Drink to death.
Wife calling
♫ Smiling with a mask on ♫
♫ Pretending you're strong, but you're actually more vulnerable ♫
♫ I just want to be in love, I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me, Away from Cloud 9 ♫
Wife calling
- What's wrong? - I think the call dropped.
Try it again.
The caller you have reached is not available. Please wait and try again.
He shut his phone off.
Maybe it ran out of battery.
Then since we can't contact her husband,
she can just sleep here for the night.
We have an extra room anyway.
What if he called back?
If he called back we can just tell him.
Hey, hey, hey.
You're going to fall.
Such a bad sleeper.
You won't even know if you fall.
You should carry her inside.
Oh.
Here. Come.
I'll be ok.
Man Man Jie...
Big sister and Miss Tao just don't get along.
How are they going to live happily at Living Happiness #1?
How to get two women to live happily together...
Women are like tigers.
One mountain cannot have two tigers.
What to do, what to do?
When did you come back?
I've been here for a long time.
You haven't eaten yet, right?
I'll go make you some food.
Oh, that's right. What would you like to eat?
Why are you following me?
I am learning to walk like you.
Walk like me?
Why do you have to walk like me?
Because I have to learn the mannerisms of men to fit into my new role.
He Xiao Kang, changed your role? He's not making you act as a tree?
No.
Then what role are you playing?
Why do you have to learn to be like a man? That's ugly.
It won't be.
Dad, let me tell you.
This time, I'm acting as a handsome man.
It's the male lead Romeo.
Romeo from Romeo and Juliet?
That's right.
Why can't you be Juliet?
Are his eyes bad?
I need to take that person to the doctor.
My daughter is so pretty. Of course she should be Juliet!
Why would she be Romeo?!
Who's idea is this? For you to be Romeo?
I suggested it.
You suggested it? When did you..
What kind of idea is this?
Yes. Think about it. You love chicken legs.
If you eat it everyday, you will get tired of it.
It's such an old script. The audience is probably tired of it.
That's why I wanted to do a cross-dressed performance.
This way it's fresh and engaging.
Then the audience will be interested, right?
That sounds right.
Dad, you have no idea. He Xiao Kang wearing all white
and walking like Juliet like this...
If you didn't know, you'd think he was performing Swan Lake.
Then, to He Xiao Kang I have to...
- Like this? - Lean back a little more.
A little more.
- Just like this. - What kind of position is this?
This is acting.
This the part when Romeo falls for Juliet when they first meet.
I need to hold onto Juliet's waist and say
"With my unworthiest hand I profane. This holy shrine."
Wait.
Is the part after this the...
You guys will k-kiss?
No! It's only acting.
Why are you overreacting?
What kind of acting is this?
There has to be a limit to acting.
I-I think...
- Dad, you're so annoying! It's just acting.- Daughter, you have to say it clearly.
- You can't be like that - Dad!
I came back early to give Xiao Qian a surprise.
- So it's like that.
Yes, I know that Xiao Qian has been busy with Living Happiness #1,
so I didn't want to bother her.
Right, keep my coming back a secret.
Shao Qi said that he came back to spend White Valentine's Day with Xiao Qian, and even prepared a surprise for her.
Why?
It's already so late. Why aren't you sleeping?
Yes, I have to alter the clothes.
Everyone else is busy, so I get to do this.
This... Is it a girl's costume?
You're adjusting it for Xu Tong?
This is what I have to wear tomorrow.
You're going to wear that?
Why are you looking at me like that?
Actors cross-dressing for roles is a normal occurrence.
Why are you overreacting?
Despicable.
No, it's not that. Seeing that you were able to correct the wrongdoings towards Xu Tong, I'm happy for you.
Then can we cancel the punishment?
As usual.
Doing wrong and being punished, and doing wrong and repairing the situation are two different things.
Once you're done altering the clothes, reflect facing the wall for an hour in a head stand.
One hour is too long.
When you do something wrong, you get punished.
Goodnight.
Ah, it's already late.
That's not my ceiling!
Where is this?
Living Happiness #1.
I slept here last night.
I didn't go home?
I didn't go home yesterday?!
Xiu Qiong Jie, Gao Mama, sorry..
I got drunk yesterday,
so I overslept.
As a manager, who acts like that?
Sorry, sorry.
Don't be like that. Can't you sympathize with her a little?
Up to you.
Xiao Qian, it's okay.
I made some breakfast. Come eat with us.
I'll go get you some food.
But I don't have an appetite.
I didn't go home yesterday,
so my husband must be really worried. I didn't tell him.
Please. So what if you didn't go home for a night?
I've never done that before.
You think you husband is worried?
Of course! I didn't...
Do you want to check your phone and see if he called?
How is that possible? He didn't call once.
♫ Smiling with a mask on ♫
♫ Pretending you're strong, but you're actually more vulnerable ♫
♫ I just want to be in love, I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me, Away from Cloud 9 ♫
How is that possible? He didn't even call once.
So what?
Why do you have to be like that?
Do you have to get involved in someone else's family matters?
I'm only stating the facts.
It's already past 12, and your phone hasn't rung once.
How worried could he be?
Xiao Qian, have some breakfast first.
Let's talk after you eat.
Come eat first.
Didn't you say you would love yourself and be yourself yesterday?
You need to take care of yourself.
After you eat, you'll have energy to think.
Sorry, I really can't eat.
I'm going to go wash up and change. Then I'll come over again.
Xiao Qian, be careful going back.
Thank you, Gao Mama. Thank you, Xiu Qiong Jie.
I troubled you for a whole day. I'm really sorry.
It's okay.
Then I'll leave now.
Be careful!
Jian Xiao Qian.
Are you okay?
Huh? I'm fine.
I have to hurry home. Let's talk another time.
Xiao Qian, if there's any problem, you can come find me.
- Bye bye. - Bye. Be careful.
Subtitles brought to you by the Singers of Love Team @ Viki
Zi Zi, please send the patient in.
Why is it you?
Gao Ding Ya, what are you doing?
Don't you know that my time is precious? I'm...
50 minutes, NT$2,500. I know.
Do you think I can become a psychologist, or is it too late?
You first need to be accepted to the psychological consultative institute. Study for two to three years,
add on one year of practicum, and then prepare for the psychologist license exams. It's not difficult.
Then fine. I'll continue to be a stylist.
Why did you come?
To seek treatment.
Why see a psychologist if I'm not seeking treatment?
Why are you looking at me like that?
I was waiting for you to speak. I'll listen.
Say whatever you want.
Okay.
Did you know? I'm in a lot of pain.
I'm really in a lot of pain.
No way.
You want to take your reach from the pub to the blood and tears boxing ring?
If you saying nonsense, I'm going to let you die in the blood and tears in the ring.
Take these.
Put them on.
How scary.
I'm I going to be able to go home to see my mom?
This is your therapy.
Hit it until you feel satisfied.
Therapy?
You really want to give my therapy?
Do I really have a problem with my inner self?
It's not as bad as your head. I can still help you.
You always scold people without dirty words.
This is an attained state. If you practice for another 20 years, you'll get it.
That better be it.
You normally take your patients here?
I only bring friends.
People's emotion can be followed.
No one can perfectly hide their inner self.
Gao Ding Ya, I'll wait for the day you're willing to say it.
But before then, take our your emotions with this.
Exercise can help express emotions.
Good luck.
Remember to warm up.
I've been seen through.
Husband! Husband?
I didn't come home the entire night. I didn't call him.
Is he mad at me so he didn't call?
The person you've called has turned off their phone.
Please call back later.
His phone is off.
He must be angry at me. What should I do?
I should go find him at his office so I can explain and apologize.
March 12th.
That's not right. He came back on the 13th.
Why would he have a receipt for the 12th?
If he came back on the 12th, how could he not come home?
Why wouldn't he come home?
That can't be possible right?
Why did I come here?
Jiang Xiao Qian, you've watched too much TV. You're thinking too much.
Your husband loves you so much.
♫ A lonely young person lives in betrayal ♫
♫ He used to hope, Time and love wouldn't be difficult ♫
♫ How much you lose or win ♫
♫ It's not important ♫
♫ High status or low status ♫
♫ Hero or clown ♫
♫ You and I need to act it out well ♫
♫ The world is just as we imagined ♫
♫ Grim, tyrannical, uncivilized ♫
♫ I used to always rebel ♫
♫ Dreams tossed aside, We have several times ♫
♫ You need to suffer a few wounds ♫
♫ So you can let go of regrets ♫
♫ I'm doing well right now ♫
♫ I will still worry ♫
♫ My heart's tired, but at least it's still beating ♫
♫ Those impossible things, Or those things you can't do well ♫
♫ You still need to keep running forward in life ♫
♫ I just want to be in love, I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me, Away from Cloud 9 ♫
What's wrong with Xiao Qian?
Didn't she say she was going home to wash up and change?
Why is it taking so long?
What, can't you go through your day without worrying about someone?
Take this.
It's organic hand brewed pineapple cider vinegar.
You're giving it to me?
Who else? A ghost?
You didn't add poison right?
Yes, arsenic.
Do you want to drink it or not?
How can you be so mean while offering a drink?
Should I beg you to drink it instead, Man Man Jie?
No need.
What is this?!
You did it on purpose right?
Why is it so sour?
Of course vinegar is sour.
Huh?
Drinking vinegar is good for your health.
Everyday you consume lots of oil and salt.
Let me tell you, your body's pH is probably acidic.
Drinking more vinegar will help to balance your body pH to be more alkaline.
Please, how old are you now.
Accept it and take care of yourself.
Didn't some one say,
"life and death is fate.
The length of your life is determined by God.
Just let it happen."
Just let it happen?
Okay, then let me ask you this.
Do you want to lay in bed taking medicine until you're 100?
No.
That's right!
Being healthy, and being mobile is called living.
If you want to be a patient and not be able to go anywhere for the rest of your life,
then let me tell you this. You're not just putting yourself in pain,
you will also put your children through pain.
Now do you want to take care of yourself?
Yes.
It's really not simple.
You flirt, how do you know so much?
This way, you will be live to 102, and become an old evil spirit.
Quickly drink it, once it contacts air the nutrients will go away.
Okay. Okay, I'll drink it.
Let's cheers.
It tastes good.
The second sip is different from the first.
Once it's in the mouth it becomes sweet.
Of course. What I drink is the best.
Who do you think I am?
That's true.
Yi Qing
Your husband is going back to Shanghai?
Yeah, the company values him.
They value him too much.
You should pay more attention Shao Qi to avoid any issues.
The girls in Shanghai are really amazing.
That won't happen. I believe in Shao Qi.
Okay, if you don't want to listen to me, then don't come crying when something happens.
That will never happen.
♫ I never let anyone worry ♫
♫ Even when I said "I'm letting go", it was so firm that you believed it ♫
Maybe I misunderstood.
♫ But I actually can't leave ♫
♫ Looking at you hugging your new love ♫
♫ Maybe I don't love myself enough ♫
♫ Forcing myself to do it again and again ♫
♫ Reminding myself repeatedly I should go forward ♫
♫ It's not that I haven't tried ♫
♫ If it's because I don't love myself enough ♫
Husband, pick up.
Please.
♫ There's no need to cherish it so much ♫
Detailed call logWife
♫ I never let anyone worry ♫
♫ Even when I said "I'm letting go" ♫
♫ It was so firm that you believed it ♫
Husband, where are you?
Why aren't you picking up the phone?
♫ Looking at you hugging your new love ♫
♫ Maybe I don't love myself enough ♫
♫ Forcing myself to do it again and again ♫
♫ Reminding myself repeatedly I should go forward ♫
♫ It's not that I haven't tried ♫
♫ If it's because I don't love myself enough ♫
Your call will be transferred to voicemail.
♫ And I can't get over my memories ♫
Husband!
You want to be my wife?
Okay, I knew you loved me.
I'm came over with Ding Ya after boxing.
I wanted to have a coffee with you, but you're not here.
Where did you go?
Yes, my mom said that you were going to wash up, change your clothes, and come back.
But why are you taking so long? Are you taking a royal bath?
Hello? Why aren't you saying anything.
Hello? Can you hear me?
I have something going on at home.
I'l call you back later. Bye.
Xiao Qian! Hello?
What's wrong?
She hung up on me.
Could it be that her husband is upset that she didn't go home to sleep?
Could it be?
Mom,
What are you and Xiu Xiu Jie talking about?
Nothing.
What do the two of us have to say to each other?
No, I think there is a scent of peace between you two.
Wow, it smells so good.
Are you okay?
Your son's a bit strange.
You take care of it.
You're strange.
Who wants to be like you?
My son's fine.
Did you two have fun on your date?
Yes!
Yi Qing, said that she'll take me to learn Kendo.
Mom, do you know that Yi Qing is at Kendo level 5?
Level 5?
Not bad! In the future if you guys argue, you don't need to be afraid of being the small person.
Can you not speak?
Don't jinx it.
They're relationship is great. They won't argue.
Miss, come over here.
Come over here next to Gao Mama.
Yi Qing, Gao Mama feels that you look very strong,
but as a woman, you're a girl at heart.
More like a BL fan girl at heart.
What?
Speak up, we didn't hear you.
I was saying, Yi Qing is a pure girl at heart.
That's right!
That's why most girls will hope that the person she falls in love with is like Ding Ya.
He can make you into a princess. Care for you, love you, and protect you.
Right?
Gao Mama...
Gao Mama knows.
Boyfriends and girlfriends are affectionate.
You can go on dates, but you don't have to go to fencing.
That's too dangerous.
You can hold hands and go out. You can go see the mountains, or the ocean.
Let Gao Mama tell you.
Don't force yourself to become a woman who won't rely on men.
When you're in front of the man you like, don't be tough.
It's very tiring.
Gao Mama, I'm not acting tough.
I know, I know.
Don't worry.
Gao Mama promises my son Gao Ding Ya will allow you to fully appreciate the pleasures of being a woman.
What's wrong with you?
Mom, what are you saying?
What experience the pleasure of a being a woman?
How can you say such A-rated words?
Was it "A"?
What your mom means is that she's eager to have grand children.
You should pick up the pace.
If you don't speak, no one will say you're mute.
Being so direct, do you want to scare Yi Qing away?
Miss, weren't you just being very direct?
Don't feel embarrassed.
What did Xiao Qian go out to do that it's taking her so long to come back?
I'm going to call her and ask.
Okay, go call her.
Mom. Don't say so much to her, you will scare her.
It's already late.
Time passed by so quickly.
Time to leave work.
Jiang Xiao Qian...?
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Your face doesn't have clues. Only I understand the feeling of sadness.
"The Mask" by Gary Chaw
Subtitles brought to you by the Singers of Love Team @ Viki
♫ Are you smiling? Are you crying? ♫
♫ I can't see ♫
♫ You want to break free, You want freedom ♫
♫ Aren't you tired? ♫
♫ Your expression, Can you just ♫
♫ let me find some clues? ♫
♫ Don't be afraid, Please hold my hand ♫
♫ Smiling with a mask on ♫
♫ Pretending you're strong, but you're actually more vulnerable ♫
♫ Don't let your face be filled with pain anymore ♫
♫ Just let it go ♫
♫ Let happy tears flow ♫
♫ Have sadness be completely removed ♫
♫ This world is waiting to be inspired by you ♫
♫ Everywhere in this world ♫
♫ is inspirational ♫
The Love Song